Hindi naman talaga dapat ito ang unang post ko for January. Pero I have to. Bakit? Nakita ko lang naman kasi ‘yong crush ko sa pila ng bus (Coastal terminal) this morning. The first time I saw him was around October 2013. Nakasabay ko talaga sya mula pagpila, pag-antay ng bus at syempre sa mismong bus na rin. That time, we were among the passengers who stood on the bus aisle so we could be on our destination on time.I didn’t mind at all kasi katabi ko lang sya eh.
Ang tangkad ni Kuya. Tapos fair complexion at medyo long hair. Hindi lalagpas ng balikat ‘yong buhok. He was wearing a slightly loose light blue polo and slacks ata ‘yon then a dark blue cap. He’s wearing a serious face while listening to something from the earphones. Pasong Tamo was his destination that time. I tried to have an eye contact. Magpapa-cute sana or something. Hindi ko naman ginawa. I checked his fingers, trying to see if he’s already committed but I failed to see one. O baka naman hindi nya sinusuot. I assumed that the age of the man is between 30-40. By the way, he smelled good that time.
Then this morning, I saw him unexpectedly. Feeling ko kasi nung unang beses ko s’yang nakita eh one time big time lang ‘yon at hindi ko na sya makikita. Medyo nagulat pa ‘ko nung nakita ko sya and I knew na nakita nya ‘ko. He stared at me for a while. Kaso umiwas agad ako ng tingin. Nahiya ako. I cannot hold a gaze on him. Then, I looked at him again when he was looking on the opposite direction. I tried to see his fingers again but the line started to move. Polo, slacks and cap. Same kind of outfit. But I was not able to know if he still smells good. Hahaha. He’s ahead of me in the line. The line was a U-shape. Dami ng tao kahit quarter to six pa lang.
And again, I didn’t make any move. Not even a smile. NAPAKA-TORPE KO TALAGA. Nakakainis. I should’ve smiled. That’s the least I can do if I cannot hold a gaze on him. Pero wala. Lagi ko pa naman sinasabi na matapang ako pagdating sa ganito. Pero napatunayan ko na hindi sa lahat eh kaya kong maging straightforward.
At isa pang patunay na nagiging torpe din ako. Basahin ang sumusunod na usapan.
Let A: Ako
GEO1: Girl ex-officemate 1
GO2: Girl officemate 2
Nag-umpisa ‘yan sa picture tinag sa’kin ni GO2 sa Facebook.
GEO1: Dapat babatiin ko rin sya ng Happy New Year kasi nagrereply sya. Kaso di ko sinend ‘yong message ko. Happy New Year! I love you. HAHAHAA
GO2: Wag ka ng maging #torpe. 2014 na.
A: Nahihiya akong batiin si Atom. Baka i-reject ako. Hahahahaha! (‘yan talaga ang sinabi ko at kita naman na torpe ako)
GEO1: Gusto ko gawin ‘yong sinabi ni GO2 pero tama si A. Hahahaha.
GO2: Kung usapang kanto ‘to, nasabihan ko na kayong SUPOT. LOL.
At may usapan pa sa Twitter about naman dun sa response ni Atom Araullo na I LOVE YOU TOO dun sa nag-comment ng ‘Atom, pls. reply with I Love you too. Thanks‘. O diba, ang sweet lang ni Atom. Hindi ko kayang gawin ‘yon ha. Pero diba dapat malakas na loob ko kasi online naman ‘yon eh. Hindi naman ako tuluyang makikita ni Atom kung sakaling magsabi rin ako ng I Love You. Crush ko sya eh. 🙂
Ngayon, hindi ko gets kung anong problema ko at kahit smile hindi ko magawa dun sa crush ko. Tsk.