Minsan, magpakatanga naman tayo.
— Issey. Dagitab (2014)
There are things you shouldn’t have done or things you wish you’re able to do. Because most of the time, my mind is full of unnecessary shit and unheard/unwritten thoughts, I have a theory that I fucked up some certain things. Things I thought are not important or best way to describe it: ‘not part of my system and not used to it’.
Been thinking a lot the past few days and it hurts. I still don’t have any resolutions but I want to patch things up. I really want to but I don’t know how or where to start.
Just this weekend, I’ve watched some indie entries from Cinemalaya. Films are part my escape plan but at the same time, they drag me to quiet moments and think over the things I have done lalo na ‘pag alam kong tinamaan ako sa istorya. Sometimes, not only the stories but the accompanying songs and music. I feel like they’re talking to me, saying something I should listen to.
The Players: Shoemaker feat. Karen Gaerlan (Mariquina. 2014)
I wish that all of us were better at playing the game.
Until it feels like the only solution we know is to go.
Broken Strings – Karen Gaerlan (Mariquina. 2014)
Following footsteps returning to silence.
Sparks – Champ Lui Pio (Dagitab 2014)
If only we can start.
Start with something stupid.
And maybe we can start with something beautiful.
Mula Rito Hanggang Kalayaan – Noel Cabangon (Dagitab. 2014)
Kahit pag-ibig ay tatalikdan.
Way of the Heart – Mon Espia (Dagitab. 2014)
Just forget about your foolish pride.
The only way to go is to follow the way of the heart.
Tinamaan nga ata ako ‘don sa mga kanta. Been listening to them since seven in the morning on Monday. Hanggang doon na lang siguro.